I hate how my life has been comprised of these stops and starts of diet and exercise. I know how to do it, that is, eat properly and exercise; I just can't maintain the momentum, and it sucks.
I need it to be different this time--I need the light at the end of the tunnel to stay lit; I need to care about the condition that I am in, and the condition I want to be in. I have to channel my emotions into something other then food, and that may be the hardest part. I've spent the better part of 40 years medicating with food. Time to stop.
The bottom line is-- being fat sucks, and I don't want to be that anymore.
I am okay with the momentum until my huband says, "hey would you like me to pick up little cesars so you don't have to cook"
ReplyDeleteLet's do it together :)
Okay, well maybe my momentum sucks too. I guess the key is honesty.
ReplyDeleteI started my morning with my coffee before Adam's swimming, knowing full well that he would be hungry for another breakfast when he got out of the pool and that then I would eat. I started okay and even came home and ate an apple and cheese stick and ritz crackers. That doesn't seem too bad until I ate the left over pizza in the frig a few hours later and then another cheese stick. Did I mention that I still have not exercise nor have I drank hardly any water. The goal is 2 ltrs. per day.
I will get on the treadmill before bedtime and do my seated meditation.
Tomorrow will be my official weigh in again. I didn't do it this morning. I will weigh myself every Tuesday vs. daily.
I am obsessed with the thought of loosing weight just not obsessed with actually doing it.
Dani: how are you doing?
Be sure on your weigh in to take your before picture in your underware (keep it private). As depressing as it is it definitely creates a true reality. Sadly I don't look the same in a mirror as I do in my Bra & Underware. Even the mirror lies when you look at front, sides and back.
ReplyDeleteBack on track with Dinner & Excercise. Caught up on my water. Chopped up about two cups of romaine, 1/2 a tomatoe, and 4 oz of steamed chicken breast, 2 tsps of low cal rasberry vinegrette dressing. NO PIZZA OR CHEESE TOMORROW!